今天的心情

你想要的
我却不能给你全部
我能给的
却不是你想要的
你的快乐除了他
还有我永远的守候。。。。

现在回想一下，
才发现自己真的很怕寂寞，
很怕独自一个人，
虽然常听人说单身很好，自由。。。
但真的如此的好吗？
但我却很讨厌及害怕这种感觉。。。
以前不会有此感觉，
自从你的离开，
真的让我有了很大的改变。。
真的真的很讨厌现在孤独寂寞的感受。。。

常在想能再次拥抱你，
再次有你在身边，
你能体会到这样的感受吗？
有个人还一直默默的在你身后，
保护着你，守护着你，支持着你，
担心着你，关心着你。。。。

ps:时间能倒退及停留吗？？？

adapted from angel blog

如果你不爱一个人,

请放手.

好让别人有机会爱她.

如果你爱的人放弃了你,

请放开自己,

好让自己有机会爱别人.

有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,

有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.

人生中有许多种 .

但别让自己为一种伤害.

有些缘分是注定要失去的,

有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,

爱一个人不一定要拥有,

但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.

男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.

女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.


如果真诚是一种伤害,

我选择谎言;

如果谎言一种伤害,

我选择沉默;

如果沉默是一种伤害,

我选择离开.


如果失去是苦，

你怕不怕付出 ,

如果迷乱是苦，

你会不会选择结束,

如果追求是苦，

你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,

如果分离是苦，

你要向谁倾诉,

好多事情都是后来才看清楚,

好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!

1st presentation of degree

Our 1st presentation of degree...

Me,siaw huei(1002),Rui Ying(Nicole), Miss Shirley(tutor+lecturer),Joan,Yin Yin,Liang Khoon

Jog

Some pict took when we were resting......

心情

日期：2009年7月15
时间：2.45am
天气：良好
心情:高兴？伤心？绝望？（都有）

时间一天一天的过，
但却觉得一天一天的在浪费时间
为何？
因为不知现在有何人生目标
有何理想，
为什么而活着，
只能一直跟随着它的背影，
不断的追赶着，
默默的在身后守护着，
怕它受伤，被骗，迷惑，迷失方向
希望在它需要任何帮忙时，都能及时出现。。。

明白现在的它以有别个它。。。
明白现在的它已有别个它的帮忙，扶持，支持，安慰
明白现在的它的脑海，心及世界里只有它。。。
明白现在它的精神寄住是它
但偏偏我就是迷失在它的世界里，
找不到任何出口。。。
直到有天精疲力尽。。。
消失于这世上。。。

因为它，
我可以一直的被伤害，
因为它，
我不会再悲哀，
我还不想离开，
就让我静静傻傻一个在发呆

好胜?自卑?

是因为自卑而开始好胜???
还是因为好胜可是却没有任何东西比人好而开始自卑呢???
最近总是在想自己真的有任何优点吗？
但，真的一个也想不到。。。
钱？没有。。
学业？差
样貌？差
知识？差

最近总是好像想争取些什么。。。
但又为了什么。。。。
也没本事。。。
总想有个人在身边聆听。。。
总想找个人倾诉。。。
但有过教训了。。。
也不敢再表露真感情了。。。
但是，一颗心能容的了多少东西呢!!
每当回头总会发现，原来一路上只有自己一人。。。
好想有个人陪在身边。。。
一起分享喜怒哀乐。。。
烦恼。。。
迷惑。。。

一年的时间
让我有了很大的变化。。。
变得开始爱想东想西了。。。
变得担心这担心那。。。
变得介意人家的看法了。。。
变得小心翼翼，胆小怕事了。。。
已经变得习惯用微笑掩饰一切。。。
还能回到过去的我吗？
累了。。。
真的好累了。。。
总想一切就将停下来，让一切就将结束。。。
那该多好。。。。
没我的存在，你或其他的一切都会变得更美好吧。。。
开始对自己的存在感到疑惑及迷惑。。。
人就像飞蛾
即使知道烛光会烧死自己。。。
但还是拼命的飞向烛光。。。
为何如此愚蠢？
也许只想找一细光芒或希望。。。

我不是最好，但愿也不是最差

Comment

Today there is a ppl giving comment about me....
and i just realise im so much weakness....
and the ppl say till like really dont have any advantage...
but after thinking...
wat the ppl say is true also.....
really feel like very useless
although is not wat good thing...
but anyway, still thx to it tat let me realise about myself....
maybe really is time to change....
otherwise still is just another useless ppl in world....

ps: anyone who reading my blog, pls leave ur comment bout me also....
no matter good or bad... if dont want me noe who r u then just write in the chat box....
thx.....

F.U.S

Wat is FUS???
haha... act is not good to say in here la...
So any1 that really feel interest de then go ask our old grandma samantha....
haha....

This few day dunno wat wrong wif me....
i keep feeling stress, nervous and no mood....
and stress for wat? DUNNO
nervous for wat??? DUNNO
why feel no modd?? DUNNO

wat wrong wat wrong...
but then wednesday....
because of something.... all my bad feel is gone and feel release...
really feel thank to tat ppl... ^^

This few day r so busy....
written report then presentation then exam....
somemore still need busy photostat de thing...
then suddenly also dunno who already photostat who not yet...
feel blur..... yikssssssssssss.................

already many day didnt sleep well and didnt more than 5 hour...
feel so tired liao...
this few day keep having nightmare....
at least 2or3 per night....
go away la.....
dont keep finding me....
hope after this week can let me have a nice sleep...

need start study my management liao...
sat test now still not yet start one pg...
waiting for die de la
same to QT....
totally dunno... and next week is the test...
kill me.....

ps:I will be a better man..i want to be rich and knowledgeable... but can I??haha....

K.A.M FastFoodGroup

Wat is K.A.M???
haha...
is a group create by us when chatting....
tat the reason my gang have increase jor one new member(AngelTheng)...
K.A.M>>>>Kenny,AngelTheng,Mice.....
Since our new member and me and kenny also is so like to eat burger and mcd....
So we decide to open a FastFoodGroup lo...
haha.....
Especially our Angeltheng.... she is very crazy wif MCD de....
and she also is a very funny de gal....
one of it is she say other ppl belanja her, she will feel paiseh...
hehe
Anyway, hope she can enjoy the time wif us.....
hope our friendshio will be 4ever... haha
LiTheng
Nice to meet u, and thank for be our friend...
welcome to our group..^^

jogging

Today pipu invite me to go jogging....
at first i reject de, course almost the time to go dinner....
but since kenny them also will go for jogging....
then i also agree lo....
really a long time no jogging jor....
i think got 3 or 4 year liao.....
the first thing we do is go kenny house to halau him down... haha
then we start from his house to the park...
before school start still tot want to come here wif n......
pipu is the most geng among us....
then since me and kenny also long time no jog...
so we keep stop down....
yin syn and peiyi more cham....
just jog awhile then sit there wait us finish jogging....==
but i think jogging also is a good thing to let me release stress too....